Theme: A few of my favourite things
I will not hide it. It continues to be a struggle. It should be a great week, an exciting one.
But I am a long way from home and feeling rubbish.
For the first time since going freelance, I have had a wobble, after working non-stop for 4 weeks through the evenings and weekends, and therefore running myself into the ground. By the end of last week, I got stressed and overwhelmed, but there was no way to stop. Stuff had to get done. Deadlines had to be met. And as usual, everything had landed on me at once.
Then add on the travelling this week (going to Finland for a week for work – I know, boohoo!) and I am exhausted, totally wiped out. It’s finished me off, the germs are invading. And I feel alone.
I feel constantly nauseous, I am struggling to eat and my good ol’ enemy imposter syndrome is kicking my butt.
Add to this that one of my beloved bunnies is unwell and so both were in the hospital when I left home to come away for the week (they have to go in their bonded pairs). This took the excitement right out of it. I wanted to stay at home where I could look after them and squish their furry faces.
So it put me in a real funk. I have not been a happy bunny. I was so worried – I still am.
As a result, I am struggling to write about my theme – my favourite things – this week. My brain is just not feeling creative nor in that happy, bouncy place.
As I sat there struggling to think what to write, what I ended up doing instead is sitting and reflecting. I made a plan – what am I going to do to get myself back on track?